http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMex_FmvoF0
So, today, there are a pair of quotes that seem to have stuck in my mind quite well.
"I suggest you allow yourself to be comfortable with your discomfort."
The second, I can't seem to find word for word, but it goes something like...
"The exploration of the unknown is part of our existence."
Both of those quotes are actually from Star Trek, but as my mind is wont to do, it wandered off on it's own little track with them.
Let's begin with discomfort. I, for one, thrive off of it. To me, it's exciting. That's why I push myself towards many of the things that are difficult or awkward for me. A lot of you have seen me sing karaoke. Anyone who has understands that I am by no means a singer. Singing in front of a crowd, however, has been something that makes me nervous since I was a kid. So now I push myself to do it. The entire female half of our species generally makes me uncomfortable, so I force myself to open myself up to them more.
And then we have to ask ourselves this question. What is the cause of the discomfort? Why do the things that make us nervous or awkward make us feel that way? That, my friends, I believe is the unknown. When it comes right down to it, isn't that really the only thing we are really afraid of? We don't fear death, we fear the change that comes with it, and the unknown of whatever is waiting for us after. I know I don't actually fear singing in front of a crowd. I fear what their reaction might or might not be. I don't fear women, I fear what they may someday be to me.
So, for me at least, forcing myself to be comfortable with my discomfort is my way of dealing with the worst fears in my life. I believe that it's made me a better person. I know that by forcing myself into these situations has given me opportunities that I count myself lucky to have had. It's also made me a tougher, more resilient person. However, I think the biggest benefit that it has afforded me is still one of what I consider my best qualities: my capacity for knowing what exactly I am. To quote Christopher Titus...
"He's an idiot, but he's amazingly self aware..."
For some reason, I can't seem to keep a straight train of thought to save my life right now. So I suppose I shall wrap it up, and leave off with one final quote.
"There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kill."